Day 1 Saturday, September 29, 2007

Henry's probably at Ilocos already. I was meaning to write earlier today (I slept at 4am earlier and woke up at noon). I've said it already and I'll say it again, I'm really not used to not having him around. Keisha's been asking about him all day yesterday and today. I guess she misses her dad a lot. I understand why, he's her wrestling mate and playmate as well. She keeps asking when her dad will be home, and I always answer "Soon." I guess she's tired of hearing the same answer over and over again.

I was able to contact him through sms with one of our patron's cellular phones. But I'd like to hear his voice for a change.

Off to Ilocos Thursday, September 27, 2007

Henry's leaving for Ilocos tomorrow noon. He and some of his cousins will be on a field trip to the said province, and he'll be gone for 4 days and 3 nights. He's sound asleep right now, but as early as now I'm already beginning to feel sad. He's still here but I miss him already - does that make sense?

I packed most of his things tonight so that I won't be in a rush to pack tomorrow. But every shirt I folded and pants I ironed was filled with the longing that he won't leave. Although I know he'll only be gone for a few days and he'll be back sooner than I expect, I guess I'm just not used to having him not around. I know that he'll miss me and the kids too, and he's doing it for the money he'll be taking home.

I hope he'll have a safe trip and be back soon, else I'd go nuts.

Staying over at my mom's place Saturday, September 22, 2007

My eldest sister Elena surprised me this evening by suddenly showing up at my house and announced that she will be taking Keisha with her to my mom's place. I didn't want her to go at all since I'd miss her the moment she starts stepping out of my door. Then my mom called on my sister's cell and she told me that my dad would need to have an operation due to a clogged artery. Repeated instances of half of his body going numb were my mom's primary concern, not to mention the problem he's had with his gallstones. She said that my dad often talks about my daughter Keisha and says he misses her a lot. I suddenly got an ache in my heart myself, and I'm still worried over my dad. Imagine the effort he took to drive at night just to pick my daughter up. My mom wasn't kidding, he missed Keisha a lot.

I also hope that Keisha will eat a lot while she's there, because whenever she's sick or just recovered, she has little or no appetite. When Simone had a fever a couple of weeks ago, Keisha followed with matching cough and colds. I guess I shouldn't worry that much anyway, since they have their own pc, Keisha will still be able to play all the pc games she plays here at home. Plus, she's with people who love her, so she won't be harmed or anything. So need for me to worry. But I still miss her. A lot.

Applying for a Job Saturday, September 22, 2007

I had to leave really early today since I was called by a certain call center for an exam. I had applied for the position of Customer Care Specialist (the same position I had when I was still working with Convergys) through Jobstreet and two days later, they called my cell and conducted a phone interview, the first stage of their recruitment process. I passed both the phone interview and the exam, and I have to come back tomorrow for an oral assessment.

I hated leaving Keisha and Simone. I guess after several months of staying at home, I wasn't used to the idea of leaving them. I comfort myself with the thought that I'm doing this for them anyway, so I shouldn't feel bad. But nonetheless, that thought only provides a temporary comfort.

I have to go all through this guilty feeling tomorrow as I leave to complete the next step in the recruitment process. To be really honest, I'm more sad with leaving them than excited with the prospect of a new job.