Me by Paula Cole Thursday, June 04, 2009

I am not the person who is singing,
I am the silent one inside.
I am not the one who laughs at people's jokes,
I just pacify their egos.
I am not my house, my car or my songs,
They are only stops along my way.
I am like the winter, I'm a dark cold female,
With a golden ring of wisdom in my cave.

(chorus)

And it's me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart.
I am carrying my rhythm
I am carrying my prayers,
tha you can kill my spirit, it's old and it is strong,
And like a mountain I'll go on and on.
But when my wings are folded,
The brightly colored moth blends into the dirt into the ground

And it's me who is my enemy.
Me who beats me up.
Me who makes the monsters.
Me who strips my confidence.
And it's me who's too weak,
And it's me who's too shy to ask for the thing I love.
But I love

I am walking on the bridge,
I am over the water,
And I'm scared as hell
But I know there's something better.

(chorus)

I just love this song. You can watch the music video here.

Loving the Job At Hand Wednesday, April 30, 2008

So OK, I didn't get the raise I was hoping to have, but I don't mind the slightest bit. 64 posts a month for a dollar each might not sound that appealing to some (like Henry, for instance) as some might think the quantity of the posts for a month for just a dollar each doesn't seem like a fair renumeration. So why do I not mind?

For one thing, the owner of the music blogs that I write for is totally great. Where else can you find a boss whom you can ask for early payouts? Second, I've been working with him for like 8 months or so, and he's never been late on a single payout. Third, since I was one of the first writers that he hired, if ever there would be future expansions on the site, I would be certainly up for a better role.

More importantly, I love the job. I have been into music since I was a kid and through making music blogs, I am able to listen to songs I loved and continue to love in the past and the present. I also learn more about musicians from different countries and get to watch cool videos as well. I also get to be updated when a favorite artist of mine releases a new single, and get to learn more about artists that I listen to.

For the time being, I will continue to post for these blogs wholeheartedly. It's not about the money anymore, it's about a secure and consistent job that I can look forward to every month.

Kiss - Because I'm a Girl Tuesday, February 12, 2008

While I was researching for some Korean music videos to embed in the blog I write for, I came across this video from the band K.I.S.S., Because I'm a Girl. Although I didn't understand the lyrics, the video was enough to move me. It just shows the sacrifices one can make for love. It's a great video, and I though I'd share it with you.

Songs I Listen To Thursday, August 23, 2007

These are some of the songs I listen to. I'm still completing the playlist, though. I'll try to upload some of the songs myself if I can't find them on Imeem.

Relaxing to Rock Music Wednesday, August 22, 2007

• written on 03-22-2007 from my previous blog.
  

My husband thinks it's weird that whenever I feel sad, lonely or tired - or anything other than fine - I turn up our stereo and listen to rock music. Sometimes I end up falling asleep, which he finds even stranger. He thinks it's virtually impossible to find sleep amidst clashing drums and screeching guitar strings.

I myself don't know why Ed Kowalczyk and Billy Corgan's voice soothes me, and often even rocks me to sleep.